Will Not Quit

Too drained to talk about anything, but here is my food journal. I also hope to make it to the gym tomorrow night for a crossRamp session (back limits anything else). Keep your fingers crossed for me!

- b

So I closed out the week with big success. I stayed on the weight watchers plan all week. Woot Woot. I am pretty happy. It is all that much sweeter, as I was pretty down on myself for falling down on Saturday. I worked it in, and all is good.

Today my football afternoon was postponed until after diner (thankfully for me!). I ended up doing some work, playing around with my MythTV media center. Next thing I knew it was 5pm and I still hadn’t eaten yet. I know that is a really bad habit. I didn’t mean to, it just sort of happened. It really did help the points front today.

I went to the grocery store, and bought a ton of chicken breasts, veggies, potato, and cottage cheese. As I was driving home I was planning on having 2 huge chicken breasts (.8 kg of meat), a potatoe, and a dish of cottage cheese. When I started opening up the food to cook it, I thought to myself, I just can’t eat this much meat. (I never thought I would say that!) So I cut the chicken in half, and added cut up a pepper as a substitute. I actually enjoyed it! Odd. Very odd.

On that note, off to bed. I hope to start my exercise/activity next week, as my back is finally getting better.

As you can see from my food journal below, I didn’t have such a good day. I went home to visit my family, and my mom had a big lunch prepared. I stayed pretty on track during the lunch, but then my parents left to run an errand, and I just felt the need to EAT. I think perhaps because I was home, it triggered old routines. Or it could just be that my mother has better food in her fridge than I let myself buy.

They came back from the errand pretty fast, which curtailed my eating thankfully. So I had to dip into my flex points a bit, but if I am strong tomorrow the week will be a success.

I am somewhat worried about tomorrow, as I’m going over to a friend’s house to watch football and hang out. There is always tons of pizza/snacks/etc. So it will be a challenge!

On the upside, despite my slip I still counted all the points and posted to the blog. Also when I was driving home, I had the mentality of “I blew it, I might as well go hog wild…..” Thankfully I realized how dumb that was before I hit any restaurants in Mississauga.

Right now I have 6 points left out of my 35 flex points. So it all comes down to tomorrow. If I can stay below 50 points (44 regular points, 6 flex points), I will have achieved a week of success!

Fingers crossed.

- b

Not much to report.  Marched through another day, and stayed on track.

- b

Ahhh the huge bowl of veggies.  It makes such a difference in my eating for the day.  It gives me a zero point option to fill up on.  Also because I don’t enjoy it as much as Chips or Chocolate, it takes me forever to eat!  Today at work I had this monster bowl of peppers, cucumber, and carrots sitting beside me and I just grazed for 2 hours.  It definitely lowers the daily point total for me.

I also went out for dinner with a co-worker tonight.  Usually dinner with this co-worker is a bit of a problem, because we order tons of appetizers and just go to town.  As we were walking to the restaurant, my co-worker tried to talk me into this spectacular buffet restaurant, but I held strong and refused to do it.  Then he tried to talk me into garlic cheese bread.  I told him he should order it, but I wouldn’t be having any.  I’m proud that I held strong.  I felt moments of weakness, but eventually got a club sandwich with house salad, dressing on the side.  Go me.

It’s late, I don’t have anything else, except another rocking food journal.

- b

Despite the fact that I am a little low on the points today, I am feeling pretty good.  Part of it might be due to the fact that I went a bit overboard yesterday (57 points!).  On the other hand, it may be because I ate a HUGE bowl of veggies the size of my head today.  It took me nearly 50 minutes to eat, but I powered through it.

Yesterday was somewhat interesting for me.  I had a normal day at work, and then drove home.  On the drive home I started thinking about the things I was going to have for dinner.  My mind quickly progressed from a normal dinner to an all out binging session.  I was literally planning what I was going to eat as I drove to the grocery store (4 grilled cheeses, a box of caramel ice cream cones, cheese popcorn, and a bottle of Coke).  Looking back on it, it’s almost funny how that conversation in my head seemed so rationale.  I pulled into the grocery store with my stomach grumbling and my lips salivating.  At the last second I thought “I can’t do this to myself again”, and I made an emergency left turn into a Swiss Chalet parking lot.  I ended up forcing myself to “be good”, and get a portioned Swiss Chalet dinner.

I made a commitment to myself last night that no matter what I ate, I would record it.  When I was recording my food, it was eye-popping.  I can’t believe how many points a Swiss Chalet dinner is!  I thought I was being relatively good!  I guess the fries and chicken skin really add up.  It’s crazy that most times I really have no idea of the nutritional value of the food I put into my body.  I think over the next few months this food journal is going to educate me in ways I can’t possibly imagine.

I may not have lost 100 pounds today…. but I did move one step closer.

Food Journal from September 8th, 2008.